Ready....

I have taken a long hiatus from blogging, mostly just because I suck. No good valid reason. Ive been busy with school, watching my niece and another family friend and saving money like there is no tomorrow. Considering me and Mr. C are not much for saving, this was a task in itself. But for what we were saving for, it came easy. Something we have always wanted, something to complete our family, and something that isnt something, Its someone. We have been saving for a procedure that will hopefully grant us the one true gift of becoming parents.

Today, is the first day of a very long road. Hopefully one with an extremely happy ending. I have my cycle day 3 blood work and ultrasound on Thursday and a class for IVF next Wednesday. This is real. This is happening. Through all of my sleepless tearful nights of how we would ever afford this, its happening, And I cannot even express the thrill, excitement, and happiness that fills my heart to know that we are close. Closer than ever to becoming parents.

Although the overwhelming happiness keeps me going, the sting of reality hits just as hard. This isn't a guarantee. And we could come out of these next 4 cycles without a baby and without all the money. I am not sure what I will feel at that point, as I cannot even imagine, but I do know this is our last shot. We will either become biological parents to a child (or children) through IVF or we will adopt.

Truthfully, we plan to adopt regardless of the outcome of the IVF. Its just a matter of time.

I really plan to update this more often, I want to remember every thought, feeling, and tear that goes into this journey. So if you follow, fasten your seatbelts. Your in for a real ride!